Thank You All…And Toward the Coming Year…
by Joe Lehman on Friday, December 31, 2010 at 1:51am
I wish to express my deepest thanks to everyone who has been so supportive and understanding in their wishes, following my long struggle through depression and obsessiveness. I also wish to apologize to anyone whom I might have caused worry or unease regarding the dramatic nature of several of my previous status statements. As one friend has pointed out, in this present hardship, writing such postings on Facebook have been the most immediate coping mechanism I have encountered. It has been my way of trying to make some sense of this state of emotional crisis. I further wish to apologize for the laxity in my responses to people's inquiries on Facebook. In my anxiety, I have found it difficult to maintain active contact on Facebook, likewise the physical world.
It has been little over two months since my latest 'crash,' as I call it. Due to a variety of reasons, mostly involving the culmination of events that have occurred all throughout this past year, I have experienced an extreme panic attack. This attack has proven itself to be greater in impact than previous ones I have faced, due to the fact that for once I do not maintain a degree of grandiosity and fantasy with which to serve as a leg to "fall back" on. As such, it has been only gradually, that I have made strides to resume normal functioning.
If it is meant for this year to end for me in ignominy, then I bid Qué Sera Sera. It is my hope that conditions will improve in the coming year, for me and for everyone.
Thank you all for your kind wishes and prayers. May you all have a Happy New Year.
Je t'aime,
Joe
