Hello, Everyone…
Friday, April 23, 2010 at 12:14am
Hello, Everyone…
Since the unfortunate theft of my laptop, it has been understandably difficult maintaining active communication via Facebook over the last couple of weeks.
Lately I've found that one of the more frustrating outcomes of this whole debacle has been the loss of several personal records I have compiled regarding past times, places, and events, in order to help me cope with the continuing troubles I have had with my memory.
Memory impairment, is one of depression's most visible (and highly frustrating) symptoms, as depression causes an imbalance in neurotransmitters. In my case, I would define the feeling as a kind of saturation of thoughts. Essentially, it feels as though the information remains locked in a cauldron deep within the my mind, but it is inaccessible to me.
As Daniel Pendick writes of depression and it's relation to memory, "This type of event reflects a loss of coordination between working, short-term, and long-term memory. Imagine these forms of memory as a series of bins… The working memory bin keeps track of events as they happen, but only for a short time. At a picnic, working memory registers your conscious experiences as you find a seat, eat, and watch the volleyball game."
I write this not for the purpose of basking in self-pity, but as a means of relief.
I've gone from place to place, and I have had the honor and pleasure of forging many frontiers—social, cultural, and intellectual—over these last few years, and making and having many friendships along the way. The more I struggle to retain the presence of these experiences in my immediate mind, the saddening it is.
I've found that I thrive on living nomadically, but apparently, most wistful when sedentary.
What I would enjoy most of all is if everyone would care to share with me any thoughts of fun times, jokes, conversations, random thoughts, activities, and experiences. It's always the little things I like to remember.
Thanks to all.
Peace,
Joseph W. Lehman
—The Mailman
Work Cited
Pendick, Daniel. "Depression and Memory." Memory Loss and the Brain. Summer 2001. Web. 23 April 2010. http://www.memorylossonline.com/summer2001/depression.html
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